light memory #3

there was this album that we used to listen to. it was an import and i forgot the name. sometimes i get the songs stuck in my head and i remember the heart shaped lamp on her wall next to her photos from home

light memory

i fell asleep on the bus. when i woke up, i watched tiny glimpses of the ocean and the sunset between passing buildings.

"i like people with orchid collections on their balcony. it takes a certain kind of personality to have an unreasonable amount of orchids."

dream log

this is the 4th or 5th false awakening and again i'm in my house and my physical intention is to go to the bathroom but i already know i'm dreaming. i want to fly and my first two attempts at it fail. i fall on the floor both times. this time i manage to do a back flip off a wall. i try more complex things like jumping between walls to gain upwards momentum, like mega man. seeing how that's possible i start to running on walls. soon i don't even have to land on the floor to launch anymore. i run around my house on its walls and fly between them. my mom's in her room and i show her what i can do and she tells me its wonderful in a way that sounds like i'm sharing something ordinary with her. i bounce off the ceiling and bounce off the bed and bounce off the ceiling and bounce off the bed and run around the house more.

in my dream, the thought of imagining infinite possibilities is a blinding light and i wake up.

cyberpunk

today i found a freeware application that can potentially change your state of consciousness. its called SBaGen and what it does it generate slightly different sine wave frequencies entering each side of your headphones. the effect is called a binaural beat and its like a droning pulse in your head. supposedly your brain will sync to the binaural beat and the different preset drones which are customizable in SBaGen can create altered states of mind. so by experimenting with the sound and seeing the effect you can create your own experiences (psychedelic, out of body, lucid). when i first came across this it seemed like something that would be out of a hacker fiction anime but i'm hopeful that it'll work for me and give me new places to explore.

the wired

i've always believed in the theory of a universal consciousness. its like a psychic network of global information rooted in our subconscious minds. for example: waking up 2 seconds before someone enters you room or getting an incoming call from the person who's number you were going to dial. my favorite is a dream i had when i was around 7. it was of a high rise apartment building in emeryville and me walking along a shoreline close by. i've never been to this place at that point in my life. one day, while sitting in a car we passed the building and that was the first time i saw it in real life but i knew the place and i remembered the dream so the connection i have with that place is always in my memory.

recently i've been reading about the internet and how everyone communicating globally increases the universal consciousness. some speculate that the next step of evolution will be an awakening of the universal consciousness and we'll all communicate globally at a psychic level.